#god just….#look at the way his gaze is so fixed#his eyes never move#his gaze is so dead and empty because he’s trying so hard to take himself away#because he knows what’s coming#and yet he’s completely given up on fighting this#even if he’ll strike out at his handlers in other ways#here he has completely given up ;___; (via hobbitkaiju)
What always struck me about this scene is that he didn’t start tearing up until Pierce started ordering for him to be wiped. He has tears in his eyes, like he is honestly terrified, and by now any semblance of resistance has been shocked out of him. Like when he lashed out at the beginning of the scene, he was having memories, Bucky memories, so upon waking he wasn’t The Asset. The way the scientist talk to Pierce about him being erratic tells us that this is very, very odd behaviour for The Asset, completely out of the norm.
But here, he is The Asset, but not, coz even if they made him obedient and ‘the perfect weapon’, he’s still a human and he knows agony is coming. He’s confused and lost and he’s being punished for it and he knows what is coming. Right after this, when they lower him, he’s hyperventilating even before the machine is fully in place.
Like idk how much of it is him giving up so much as the Winter Soldier does not have a concept of resistance. Resistance requires personal agency and autonomy. He has neither of those things, so he does what he is told. But he can still fear pain, which says a lot about how agonizing the machine is. He can walk into gunfire and play on a freeway without even blinking, but Pierce says “wipe him, start over” and he has honest to God tears in his eyes.
I’ve rambled and kinda got lost but just…he’s lost, he’s confused, and he’s scared, and the Winter Soldier has no idea that he can stop this, has no concept of stopping this, because he could. He could slaughter everyone in that room in seconds.
But it’s obvious with the way Pierce nearly smacks him right out of the chair and the Winter Soldier just takes it that the Winter Soldier just…has no concept of rebellion, and he’s been programmed to be that way, has had all semblance of rebellion literally fried out of him.
This movie fucked me up. This whole scene and its implications fucked me up. It was so startlingly dark and heartbreaking.